My Latvian experience

In this lifetime we are often so lost and confused... And in some places and with some people we learn things, we learn things that change us.

In this lifetime  I am often so lost and confused... And in some places and with some people I learn things, I learn things that change me.

I have learned to speak from the eye. From the I. And it was hard. And easy at the same time because I am more often than not, egoistic. But I guess everyone is as well.

This training was not something I expected. I expected something a lot more superficial, more structured and by the book. But my book flew out the window when I walked through the stones. Each day started with an amazing tool - free writing. I have never done that before, but I will continue. Everytime I recognize I have too much mess in my head. It brings clarity, and the pain in the hand is worth it. Besides free writing, we also had the time in the day, completely random,when we listened to each of the participants power song - a song that makes them feel good. That was beautiful. During one of my songs I was super embarrassed and during the other super excited.

In this short time we went through very practical tools on emotions, burnout, mental health in general, deep listening and mirroring.. And many more. Everything was broken down to simple steps, but when we did the practical part - it was not so simple to do. Which is just an indication that these practices are not known and used in general society. Nothing new, but sad. For me personally it was incredibly validating to hear about approach to emotions. Because in my community, country, emotions are painfully minimalized, invalidated and neglected. So more than anything else, this training made me FEEL more. Made me start thinking about my needs and made me start prioritizing them. And it was so hard. We had a 22 hour challenge to think about our needs and self care. In this time we were supposed to do only what is on our list for self care. It was hard, I couldn't even think of what my needs are and how would I go about taking care of my self... It was challenging. And I realized I am a people pleaser and I am not being honest in my work.

I have decided to change my job position. I realized working with people is too challenging for me. At least for now. So I have everything to thank to these wonderful people who made this possible. I will work in the same place, but a job that feels good to do.

I have met so many, so many beautiful people in this training. I stayed in touch with some of them and made plans for the future. I will meet them again. I got some fresh ideas on how to go about my life, felt some new perspectives from the connections I made. So I feel enriched in different ways. It was absolutely something I needed and I would recommend anyone to try it. Although, if it is not meant for you, it will not happen. Because the universe has a way of putting the right people in the right place at the right time. And it makes no mistakes!